The process of drawing this:
This is a moment in time I’ve captured to show you all out there how I cope with my troubled times 
I’ve always had a habit when I’m feeling especially down.
Drawing and Running = Therapeutic
Especially drawing! It makes me see another dimension. Please enjoy
P.S Watch it in HD or 720p on youtube! 
Because first times are so precious that it makes everything so unforgettable.
Your first time in school.
Your first friend.
Your first prom.
Your first crush.
Your first kiss.
Your first relationship.
Your first-hand experience in college.
Your first (and hopefully last) wedding.
Your first child.
Sooner or later that will all become a part of your daily lives that you take granted for
…and all you will be left with are memories
Treasure and and cherish the moments you have now so there will be no regrets in the future.
Make every moment your first time.
xx
It’s all just luck that we have
…it’s all we cling on to
Today my friend got rejected from 2 universities out of 5
She’s had a pretty rough time in her Junior and Senior years
She missed out an opportunity…by chance?
What’s worse is that she isn’t stupid. She didn’t get the grades because of the many things that she was blinded by. She had that opportunity and she let it slip. She didn’t want to. She’s starting to work hard now and there are results….but it all looks like it’s too late all because…
all the school sees is the system and not her.
It’s the damned university system that we all follow because it’s a norm.
Just because you get better grades, work harder, and have better academic grades doesn’t mean it has sentimental value…you really have to know the person.
HOW can you judge with just grades and personal statement?
I take a program called the IB and I realized that the creativity I used to possess has faded all because I have rules to follow and can’t step out of the gray zone that everyone seems to be dying to get into.
I want colors.
I want to be unconventional.
Luck can be unfair.
BUT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING THAT DEFEATS LUCK IS PERSEVERANCE
To everyone out there…..don’t give up
Just because a group or some system can’t look beyond the circle….doesn’t mean you need to trap yourself in a circle
Use what you can with the luck you have
Whether it’s little or big
In the end we make what we have
Throw the dice and make your possibilities
xx
‘I heard his Mom’s been sleeping around…probably doesn’t know who his Dad is!’
Rumors… They Hurt
‘Is that the teacher who had sex with the sophomore girl?’
Rumors are like Dandelions.
‘That’s the bitch. I bet she has AIDS! Ahaha!’
Once the word’s been spread, you cannot stop it.
‘Bet he’s guilty of murder! JUST LOOK AT HIS FACE!’
ONE BLOW
‘He has lice, don’t go near him’
…and the florets fly away. Whispers travel like electric circuits, the spark and heat of the gossip travels in mid-air.
‘I heard her Mom didn’t want her because she’s a whore’
…Where it goes you’ll never know
No matter how hard you try you can’t catch all the florets back…the dirty deed’s been done–you never fully take back the rumor you started.
When you expect, it means you want something from another.
I have so many expectations from myself and from others.
Even people who don’t know you expect from you.
We conform to the society we live in as a way to survive.
Because of the media, we thought that we are supposed to act a certain way.
But…
we don’t have to.
we CHOOSE to.
Why?
I’m not sure but….
its driving me insane.
To have expectations is really messed up because the enemy is always going to be reality.
How long can I do this?
Mask my discontent
Deny my discontent
All the negative thoughts because of my unrealistic expectations…
I want to make every waking moment count…
Make everyday like it’s my last
Instead of expecting I’ll try my best to enjoy the present as much as possible because I know I will never be happy if I always expect something that’s not going to likely happen.
Sometimes I wonder what life holds for me in the future.
I’m scared and yet excited for what’s to come. Think about it…every year someone new comes into your life and imprints their existence onto your heart. By the end of the day all you take back home is the memory.
I’m nearly 18 and I wonder…What’s in it for me?
Will a school accept me for who I really am? What do they see in the me when they read my application?
But most importantly…WHO am I? WHAT do I want?
To be honest all I want is to be happy, but even that term itself is too vague. What is the definition of happiness?
In life we search for something to make us content.
What is it that makes YOU content?
Wealth?
Power?
Love?
Such a long future ahead of me and yet I am so uncertain of everything. I question everything around me and it pains me to say that even I have no answers to my own questions. There is so much possibilities beyond our imagination.
I wonder…
what my future holds for me
What happens after a break-up?
What kind of relationship will I have with him/her?
Do I love her/him?
Will my heart still long for them after our break-up?
Are we happy together?
How well am I treated?
Why do I want to break up with him/her?
THESE are some good questions to consider when you want to break up with someone.
You and that person you have once loved will PART.
The thing is if you are planning on breaking up with someone you may need to think clearly and carefully of the consequences. Don’t expect the other party to have the ability to be JUST FRIENDS with you. It is simply not possible because no matter what they will still subconsciously pursue a relationship with you.
A decision to break up is definitely NOT easy.
BUT!
If this has been on your mind for quite a while now…then read on
WHY has it been on your mind? Surely there’s an underlying reason as to why you want to break-up
-Has the SPARK been lost?
-Were you CHEATED on?
-Did you stop LOVING?
-Exhausted from FIGHTING?
-Do you take each other for granted? (TIME and ATTENTION)
-Is is MISCOMMUNICATION?
The most important thing in a relationship is communication. I’d say that if the communication was missing in the love equation you are SCREWED.
-SPARKS are a on and off thing it’s natural to not feel it once in a while but it could probably be because the both of you have taken each other for granted and come to the comfort zone. In this case I think it’s definitely not the best choice to break up. You chose him/her for a reason. So FIX IT!! Don’t break it when it doesn’t work the way you want it to! Talk to them! Do something different and new!! What could you lose? In the end if all doesn’t work then I suppose the break-up is inevitable. But be careful!! You might have lost that spark but has he/her lost it? Is it mutual?
-CHEATING is a no no. Everyone knows that trust is an important thing in a relationship!! If that’s missing, then you have a problem. If your partner can cheat once and be forgiven that easily… WHAT makes you think that they won’t do it again? Love yourself and embrace yourself. You deserve to be treated better. Learn to love yourself. Not saying you shouldn’t give second chances but if you do….TALK. There’s a reason why they cheated…USE THAT information to evaluate WHY you should give them a second chance.
-Stopped loving?!?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Well it’s possible but THAT is DEFINITELY NOT the reason to give your boyfriend or girlfriend as to WHY you want to break up!! There is a reason why you dated each other… use that reason and start over again with them and if you still don’t feel it I suggest you DONT explain it with a “I just fell out of love”
-FIGHTING is a frustrating situation to be in in a relationship. It’s no use yelling at each other for the sake of satisfying your own argument. By the end of the day both of you will probably go to sleep unsatisfied and probably not remember what the argument was in a few weeks time. First ask: Would you rather be right? Or would you rather be happy? (Got this off Chris) Also ask: Is this all worth it to risk our relationship? MOST IMPORTANTLY: What can we do to fix it? We are not animals, don’t act on your urges and instincts. Though it may be hard at times, sit back and look at yourself from your partner’s point of view. Lesson that agitated emotion you have. They are your partner, not your enemy. COMMUNICATE is the key here before you make a decision to break up. Would you break up with him or her just because you FEEL that your partner’s friend (of opposite sex) is flirting with you partner? Now now, calm your tits. That is a stupid reason to break up over. Work it out before you want to quit.
-Feeling like both of you are taking each other for GRANTED? Well spend a little more time with the one another. Stop using excuses I don’t have time!! Incorporate even 10 minutes. It makes a difference to everything. It shows you care. Put down that magazine/x-box and send a text to your man/girl. Give THEM some ATTENTION!! Make them feel special. Don’t just treat them like any other friend! That’s for the friend! Give a little UMPH! If not…well well a beak up is inevitable
-MISCOMMUNICATION is the most most most MOST (putting more emphasis because it’s THAT important) CRUCIAL key in a relationship. Without this baby is like starting a car without the car keys. The relationship won’t heat up nor will it start. Miscommunication usually comes in when there’s social networking involved. When you are trying to articulate yourself well and sort things out with one another…PLEASE do so in real life. You need that sincerity and that body language to get through what you intend to say to one another. Miscommunication is a fixable problem with time. It’s you who’s deciding whether that person is worth enough of that time to spend on.
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And that’s all for today!!
Hope you guys have a great Weekend!!
xoxo
DMCgirl
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